Today is a big day in my world: it's my baby girl's first birthday. She couldn't care less - to her it's just another day that also happens to involve chewing on bright gift bows and smearing around cupcake frosting.
But, for me, it's a big deal.
This year has been the most overwhelming year of my life. There have been sleepless nights followed by extreme fatigue. There have been moments when I've wanted to just come unraveled...and I almost have. There have been countless prayers that sounded like this, "Please. Just. Help. Me." There have been so many days where I just did my best to make it through the morning to nap time...and then through the afternoon to bed time. Headaches. Viruses. Colds and flues. Baby has even had pneumonia and a couple of ER visits.
There's just nothing easy about parenting. To say it's exhausting is putting it mildly. Having one child was manageble for me. Having two children has been one big blur.
A foggy mess of memories...with lots of pictures since I was only half awake. Instead of focusing on the laying on the couch while Annelise naps and Evalie watches a movie kind of moments, I want to hold on to THESE moments:
- the way that Annelise lights up EVERY time I come into the room; she waves her arms and grins
- that special strong sister bond that Evalie and Annelise share
- how Annelise is so grossed out by our dog Jolie and really doesn't want anything to do with her
- what a good breastfeeder and then eater Annelise has been
- hearing her first coos, then mumbles, and now word-ish sounds
- her love of music and the way she rocks left and right and dances when it's on
- the countless smiles she has put on strangers faces by smiling at them in public
- her head resting on my shoulder and pressing into my chest for cuddles
- sneaking in to watch her breathe in the middle of the night, but always waking her up on accident
- the sounds she makes when sucking a bottle or a bag of baby food
- the softness of her perfect skin; unburdened by diaper rashes and sensitivities
- tiny feet that seem too small to hold her up as she learns to walk
My love for Annelise Virginia has grown steadily since the day I first held touched her wet head and pulled her shoulders from my own body and placed her on my chest...That moment changed my life forever. THANK YOU SWEET BABY FOR THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!
(See it all on the Cradled Creations link here:)